well here I am, as the world is gearing up for a big night of purposeless partying, I prepare for a nice dinner out with my husband of 5 years, reflecting and astonished at the fact that I have been in this mortal body for almost half a century.
It’s quiet on the birthday front, except for the annoying worldly preparations going on in the crowded South Florida restaurant. We have come for some tasty fish and chips, (a reminder of our life in the UK, though they are better here). We are not much into celebrating birthdays, but I guess we are practicing for my up-coming jubilee.
I have to ask myself, “What have I been doing for the past 50 years”? There have been some amazing seasons, and some amazingly wasted seasons. I really hope the next wave will be filled with more kindness, wisdom, and synchronicity with the Ruach of YHWH.
Its too bad that it takes so long to learn certain lessons. Perhaps it wouldn’t be so if true discipleship were flowing in the body of Messiah. but we cant change our histories; and, as I am reminded again, and again, the Father will use it all for some good eternal purpose.
What I hope to accomplish in the next decade includes some things which have eluded me in my younger years due to procrastination, immaturity, lack of resources, timing, or other reasons; while also walking out of new visions and assignments, with integrity. It sounds like a lot, but if one removes the tares which suck the life out of one's day (like TV, Too much sleep, too much food, foolish arguments, too much internet surfing), then after an infusion of His presence grace and life abound for all that He wants to bring forth.
I hope to record more of the music the father has given me, though it is a costly profession, I think it is a good expression that touches people. I hope to finish my first children’s novel (only a couple weeks away from completion), and also a couple unfinished book projects from a couple years back that are nagging at me.
Amidst all these little projects and more, I am looking forward to traveling to more nations around the globe singing and making music with Howie and sharing the glory of the holy scriptures with everyone Yah brings our way.
Today I am so grateful for this time in Florida (a gift from the Father), remembering who I am, getting back in shape, enjoying the sunshine and the sea, working and preparing for the next season in a great environment .
I have to say a big thank you to my friends and others who have been in my journey, sharpening, healing, teaching, and encouraging me. I know without a doubt that you have help to make me who I am today. If I have hurt you, please forgive me, if I have blessed you, praise Yah!. If you have hurt me, you are forgiven, I you have blessed me, praise Yah.
We are on the Way, the Way everlasting, and I look to the day when I can give up this mortal body and fully return “home” with all the family of our Messiah and the Father in heaven.